it's insane how i can't be diagnosed with bpd bc i'm "too immature" to have it (from doctors who thought i DIDN'T have bpd), but i somehow have emotional dysregulation severe enough that i literally can't get a job until i literally stop feeling suicidal after minor events
mentioned because it's not like. the "being unable to function like an adult" part that's preventing me from living on my own and getting a job most of the time. it's partially or even MOSTLY the literal severe undiagnosed bpd
(well. semi diagnosed because PLENTY of psychiatrists have suggested i have bpd or at least attachment trauma that caused dissociation similar to bpd)
