i have a question about gender:
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for people who do experience consistent and positive amounts of gender, do you ever check your "gender gauge" and find its something like stuck, [redacted], ???, Not Found, etc? If you do, would you say its a fairly consistent feeling?
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For people who are genderless or lacking in gender, do you experience this? Is there something else that informs you besides a gender gauge, like a presentation or orientation or other identity-experience gauges?
okay i'm TECHNICALLY genderlight, which is a mogai label that i personally describe as "so pangender that i have SO many genders including NO gender that i almost pretty much have a null, light, free gender most of the time" and...i'd say sometimes when i check my gender gauge (which i do check a lot), sometimes i check it and it's like "i'm not gendered ANYTHING, i'm just a person", and it's a very strong feeling that sometimes i feel. though i'm a system (osdd1 mediple if you're looking for specifics, somewhere in between osdd1b and pdid with osdd1a elements but not exactly the criteria for all of them exactly) so it might be related to that. when i experience genderlessness, or when i am cofronting with any of my facets or alters that experience at least partial or almost complete genderlessness, such as most notably my former persecutor/current Worst Ocd Symptoms Ever holder ashren, i'm often just struck by a lack of gendered feeling i have, almost like a gray hazy feeling over my gender. ashren is polyagender too, which is a very confusing feeling, but basically they're most agender related identities at once. whenever i'm cofronting with ashren, i feel NOTICEABLY less gendered and even genderless in presentation.
so. that's my experience with gender