
-Melancholy rabbit girl. DJing 4 U on twitch <3. Drawing and rambling on Cohost.
-My Mixes https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCz_bbtcm4bVn9g_d1ZeGxPw
Avi by @texture
i recently went through a rough period where i felt like i needed to get as far away from writing music as possible. basically someone who i briefly looked up to who runs some techno label did some weird manipulative shit to me and a friend, the details dont really matter. i cut myself off from making music for like 6 months and it made me so so much more miserable isolating myself from the things i love. even when its hard its so much better mentally to keep doing the things you are passionate about. (it was actually all the normal for girls dj sets, and especially your trance set a while back, that helped push me back towards making music) you gotta do what you love even if it might never be commercially successful or whatever, the passion and fun you have while doing it is what matters.
It really sucks that people in that position abuse their power so often, im sorry that happened ... im glad my set could inspire you to get back into it though!! I dont think anyone has ever told me they've been inspired by something ive done before ... im really happy. honestly putting myself out there with djing was not really something id normally do since I dont really like letting people in on the stuff im interested in but im glad to be doing it. Just, the fear that ill be dismissed for my passions is something I feel like im going to have to live with ...
its hard but you just gotta keep going back to the things you love no matter what. thats been my experience whether i wanted to at the moment or not i just always end up back with music in my case. when someone you look up to doesnt see it the same way its always a shock but you gotta stay true to yourself. thats how i try to live, and its not like something that is ever gonna be an instant fix. it always takes time to process this shit <3
One bad interaction can really impact someone negatively, especially when its from someone you have respect for. I'm sorry you went through that. But I like to say that when you get into something you can get back out of it, it just takes time and effort. I'm certain you can overcome this buddy. Take care ❤️
im working thru it for sure, it just kind of dawned on me how big of an impact it had. thank you <3