just realised ive been having way more fun Creating after i stopped trying to Be A Creator. you know? like im finally starting to fully comprehend how making things is something humans do like how bees buzz and wolves howl and whatever the rest of that quote is. a painting is a funny magic trick you do, and usually when you learn a magic trick you just brag about being able to do a trick instead of having imposter syndrome about not being a real magician. art is whatever you do when you play around and have fun and make something that might not be necesary for your survival, but which pleases you nonetheless, and capital a Art is when you do that enough of it that it becomes Your Thing. or when people like it enough that it becomes Your Thing. or something idk. my point is that artists have a tendency to get imposter syndrome and i think thats at least in part because of this notion that if you do art it has to be Art and to do Art you have to be an Artist. and you dont it does not matter. even now im starting to be self-conscious about this post and treating it like a capital-p Post that has to be capital-g Good. if anybody is reading this mess of words, i hope you remember that the ultimate judge of the quality of any artpiece is you, and that means you can cheat and say that everything you make is perfect actually. and i think thats good for your self-worth. idk.
