happy trans day of visibility to my ex. without her, i never would have realized i'm trans. without her, i wouldn't have known how to process those increasingly intense feelings i was having when i looked at pictures of women wearing dresses and skirts and leggings. without her, i never would've tried on my first dress, which was really the moment i knew for sure i was trans. without her, i wouldn't have had anyone to tell me i looked cute in my first pair of leggings and my first skirt, which was so important. without her, i never would've made it through all the difficulties of the earliest stages of transition, when my dysphoria was at its highest.1 without her, it would have taken much longer to find my name, if i'd ever found it at all. thank you.
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even if you eventually got tired of me talking about it and told me to get a therapist to talk to instead. and then two weeks later breaking up with me, citing "not wanting to wait for me to get better" as one of the reasons. like two weeks is even long enough to find a therapist, much less "get better." (whatever that means wrt gender dysphoria)