30-something, gray-ace, lesbian, polyam, t4t. trans cat/puppygirl ΘΔ
likes art, games, and garfield. also petplay and hypnokink? (and many more)
introverted and requires alone time.
will cry otherwise.
but also needs constant attention?
will cry otherwise?
hrt: august 8th, 2023
name change: february 20th, 2024
i belong to @Xyl-faedust 💖
profile pic by @motherfucker-receiver
18+ only
sometimes i wonder if i'm really bipoc. i mean, technically i am, maybe. i'm half filipino. but i'm also half white. and i don't look filipino. so does it really count?
in addition, my ex put these thoughts of how insanely privileged i am into my head, and i can't get them out. and it's like wow, would i be an impostor if i went to this qtbipoc space? am i a faker?
Even if you are "white passing" (is this a term?) the problems your family went through probably affected your growing up environment, and there's still bigotry to non-white cultures.
When talking about cultures, I >>>think<<< it's probably similar to being a cis-passing trans person: being stealth people won't direct their transphobia towards you, but when they find out some people might show their bigotry. And other people being bigots against your culture, even if you're not targeted, can have a negative effect in your psyche...
This all comes from a "white" person so take it with a grain of salt (I am considered white in Brazil, and since I was born and raised here I benefit from all the privileges a white person has here, but in other places, like the US, I'm considered brown)
yeah. i just don't really know what to make of it. my grandparents sacrificed a lot and worked really hard to move to the us, but they also did a lot to try to scrub the filipino culture out of their children. my mom doesn't speak tagalog because of it. and i get why they did it; back then it was very bad to be seen being openly filipino. but the lasting effect is that i feel even more estranged from my heritage, and it makes me feel even more fake.
