sometimes i wonder if i'm becoming prejudiced against neurotypical people. i saw a video that was like "people lie but energy doesn't" and talking about following your gut and cultivating your intuition and i honestly found myself thinking "i don't know if neurotypical people are capable of doing that"

i am going to get cancelled someday

i do the same thing in academia

me: sees an all male panel at a conference

me: oh. all men. this isn't going to be worth my time.

or

someone: i went to harvard

me: oh god this person is probably going to have the dullest ideas

it's a very real problem

and i find myself thinking things like "well if cis-het men didn't continually live up to the stereotype maybe i'd take them more seriously" but imagine a man thinking that about women. i really have become a man-hater. a full blown misandrist. i don't say these thoughts out loud in polite company of course but behind closed doors i'll absolutely drop my voice to a conspiratorial whisper and say, "you know what the real problem with this university is tho? they keep hiring unqualified white people."