it is weird that as I got more distant from masculinity, I began to hate men less.
I was definitely kind of a... I guess "man hater" at one point, a deeply nihilistic period where I saw men as predatory and evil due to one or two bad experiences (sound familiar? yeah it's the origin story of basically every terf)
but now I am not forced into the male box I have come to appreciate men more, both in just treating them as people and also in being attracted to them. I guess there were just a lot of issues wrapped up in that, like how I hated my body.
