i hate how you can be doing just normal for like weeks and mb even gain some self confidence and then u look in the mirror for 0.2microseconds too long and feel a crushing wave of dysphoria. i ahte my face and my body. why do i look like this oh the misery
ppl in comments or whatnot love to say i pass or am pretty or femme or whatever but it all feels like a lie or something or like all the moeny i spend on clothes or effort on trying to make my hair or skin look nice is a waste like i dont deserve any of it or like its never gonna go anywhere. i hate it so much