who else is up trying to reconcile their desperate craving for attention with their maladaptive fear of being perceived

Ada/Lykie - 30 - 18+ - HRT since 22/02/2023 - transbian, Queer, painting restorer - very ace - I wolf out sometimes - θ∆
who else is up trying to reconcile their desperate craving for attention with their maladaptive fear of being perceived
this is just a callout post I see through your lies /silly
I want to be perceived, but only positively
but I'm neither perfect nor skilled in mind control so I would have to take the bad with the good
but the bad would stick with me more than the good, even if there was objectively less of it
so