one thing i'm not sure if its my fault or not is the fact that my personal gender exploration (and honestly most other things i've been figuring out about myself) has felt incredibly alone, like i don't have a group of like minded people to regularly talk or discuss my feelings with, other than my cis therapist who sort of just smiles and nods when i bring it up. like i'm doing what i can to forge my own path to self-fulfillment and self-determination, but man it'd be nice to be taken by the hand sometimes.

