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so excited to finally start my ocd medication tomorrow lol. and my 4 different supplements bc i'm so deficient in everything apparently. but i'm so looking forward to not being so exhausted all the time, i hope the supplements work as well as the doctor seemed to think they will (i mean i'll still have chronic fatigue from the fibromyalgia i assume, but the supplements surely will help at least a bit?? or maybe a lot i hope, bc my test results were so low)

awful knowing that i am never operating at my full potential. i wonder how much more i could achieve if i was healthy.

sitting used to be enough for me to rest but these days my body frequently gets too tired to be able to support myself sitting up, so i'm spending more time lying down. and god the feeling of relief when i lie down and don't have to hold myself upright anymore is blissful. sometimes i forget that i'm simply allowed to lie down when everything feels too heavy.

but tbh lying down isn't enough anymore, i need to exist in zero gravity.