horrid misery brain today, reliving all my failings on repeat and trying to keep from shutting down completely which is the same as other days but worse than usual. cleaned a bit at least, effort has been expended.
i recognize insufficient meal is partly the cause of my mind screaming, ill get there eventually but the thought of placing a pot on the range right now is a mountainous
turns out i was just due for a panic attack i guess, i ate some mixed nuts to curb the hunger but now im too drained to even consider meal. one day some way. i feel an amount better.