TyreForHyre

i hope as many people going to AC can stay safe man, that's a lotta people.

im mad as hell and i need to talk about my life experiences later, remind me if you somehow see this shit.

i have been reminded about this post, however fittingly enough i have already forgotten whatever it was that prompted me to make this post. my anger quelled by the simple action of inaction, i think sometimes you just have to let something sit and air out for awhile to see if it was really all that worthwhile to begin with.

i recognize you can change the behavior back to how it was before but the newest versions of FTB Quests shipping with mouse wheel making the page scroll up and down instead of zooming in and out is fucking baffling to me.

it sounds stupid and maybe into the field of outright vanity but when i put on a shirt that is just bit too tight or as my buddy from highschool put it "that shirt makes you look like you're gonna start working out at any minute" i feel an overwhelming urge to consume an inordinate amount of milk and the result is: i am somehow able and it's always beneficial.

my ability to obtain and retain outright mass in the form of usable muscle in my dense form with little effort outside of consumption of needed material brings me the slightest sliver of joy in knowing and viewing the entirety of my body. i've always had an uncomfortable relation to my weight with the societal amalgamation determining that i am constantly overweight when the reality is that what is contained within me is unknown by a vast majority. i am heavy beyond reasonable measures, the advice i was given when i was forced to look to applying to the navy was "eat special k in replacement for meals for like 6 months" i recognize today im not the wrong shape and weight, im in fact a fucking factory of producing muscle and fat and it's hellish to apply the act of violence to those less able but realistically i can even still in my debilitated post covid state place my hands on either side of the head of a recruitment office worker and turn their entire being into fucking mush. just a thought i have from time to time when my dysphoria is rampant.