I miss my cat a lot.
I wish we'd known sooner that his kidney disease was transitioning from chronic to acute
maybe I could have given him unhealthy treats while he was still capable of enjoying them
I wish we'd been less strict about his kidney support diet, so that he'd have had enough to eat on the days when he just wasn't having it.
I worry that we accelerated the process by assuming he would choose to eat "gross" food rather than starving.
I... hope it's just something that was happening faster than we knew, and not something we made happen.
I wish my emotional processing hadn't stalled out for a month
I wish he was still here, healthy and happy like I remember him