I know that's a dangerous line of thought because I've tried artistic mediums in the past and it's just-
With visual media you get to see yourself fail in real time. You know every small detail. It bothered me so. I thought that maybe if I followed what people on the internet said and studied Vilppu or Loomis or what have you everything would just "work out"
Now, however, with people able to simply generate whatever they want from a machine I understand I have nothing to lose. I just need to get over myself.