Well shit. Now that I'm more myself I've come to the question I've been trying to ignore: what the hell am I gonna do now?
Should I even do anything in IT? I'm clearly struggling just getting in nevermind all the continuing education once I'm in. It was kind of my Hail Mary play. Plumbing, Welding and HVAC all make good money but is that what I want? Being out in this god awful heat more? Hell, I could go back to school and get a degree and go into debt.
Years of being down on myself has made any honest self assessment of skills impossible.
