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I realized after my therapy session this week that I've been using this site in a way that sets up a lot of expectations for myself at a time when I'm not well-equipped to handle them. Instead of just writing about whatever I've been working on or am interested in as it happens, I've been in the habit of ending posts with what I'm planning to do next, or consistently documenting projects bit by bit and posting at each major stage of the project.

Basically I turned 'writing posts' into a demand for myself instead of a recreational act. In times where my overall capacity for executive function is low, that's made cohost a source of stress and anxiety for me, because of expectations I set for myself in times where my capacity was greater.

As part of adjusting my lifestyle to meet my needs, I'm going to try to be more conscious of the ways I set expectations for myself here. I want posting here to be something I enjoy and something I feel good about doing when I'm able to, and that means giving myself the grace to simply not post when I'm not.

I do still intend to provide updates on some of the projects I've had in motion, but I'm going to be less stringent with myself about it. As much as I'd like to provide step-by-step guides to projects for which guides don't yet exist (or detailed writeups that at least generally show how I did something), I can't reasonably expect myself to do that with every project. If the amount of effort involved in 'do the thing and post about it' is enough to keep me from doing the thing at all, I'd much rather get myself to a point of being able to just do the thing, and maybe sharing about it later and/or in less detail.


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