Livyataan Tiamat

today's fursona thoughts

- i Have To more fully flesh out my wonderful rainbow slimegirl hivemind. she deserves it
- i am feeling very excessive today so it'd be great if she was just a hivemind of a totally ridiculous number of slimegirls.
- "so you've got the full rainbow today, eh?" oh well yeah... nice little subset. i wouldn't say a full rainbow, there's a few million more of us just here, but uh... well i'm talking about myself too much
- and i do mean very excessive. not "slimegirl hivemind with a population of a hundred million bodies" but "slimegirl hivemind weighing in at at least a few dozen solar masses"
- i am only barely stopping myself from going hehe... INFINITY of slimegirls. but thats too close to some of the goddess ideas anyway

- i have been having way more beegirl thoughts recently.
- like there's typical beegirl thoughts. yknow i just like yellow black and sometimes purple
- and i do have that solitary wasp sona
- you dont understand how dangerously close i am to having a sona whos a girl whos also a beehive.
- there are like 10 ways to do that and theyre all fun
- like. actual constructed beehive (by bees or otherwise), robogirl beehive, plantgirl carrying a beehive... you get it

- that wonderful mech @phantasmacora drew for me deserves a name!
- as it's a mech, i'm thinking a primary name that's more like a phrase? two to five words. or a term that'd be used in a species name like invictarx! then a more familiar shorter name
- i also would like to figure out how to introspect enough to make a hwbm-style shipself
- though i suspect no matter what it'd be named after a surface feature on venus. like come on. though its not my fault haumea doesnt have named surface features yet...

the problem is my big idea is either "i don't actually know how to figure this thing out" or "pluto heaven will be mine is highly gender i should steal hers" neither of which really work without assistance

dragonsona thoughts
- Definitely a sorta leviathan-type dragongirl or two. Maybe one who's more "incredibly long sea serpent" style, and one who's more "kraken" style, with the "big beast' style filled out by any mosasaur or orca sonas I make?
- I kind of want to do a hydra sona thing? but that's kinda just for serpentalike completionism honestly. i dont really wanna have a dozen heads
- GIANT FLYING MANTA RAY. STICK THAT FUCKER IN A GAS GIANT ATMOSPHERE. PUT SOME RUNWAYS ON IT. GIRL TIME
- I do already sort of have at least one world serpent-sona but they deserve fleshing out
- one of my names is Ziz, and so i shouldhave something properly like that big birdie
- my dragontaur sona conforms nicely to the "six-limbed dragon" thought i like but i should have more of more similar types
- something amphiptere-y, like a skysnake

Today it's time to reflect upon why so many of my genders and sonas and such are about being big. (It is also important to note that for me a lot of gender and such lands in the same range that most people would separate out into "furry" "therian" "otherkin" "alterhuman", which is why I've always had trouble when people say 'if you're otherkin voluntarily that's not valid' because how do you determine what's voluntary and what's not and what's built on from brain fuckery but also I shouldn't talk about discourse because it is not fun)

So like, I have a good dozen sonas relating to being a spaceship (not an exaggeration, i don't think!), and while I do enjoy humanoid forms the smallest one (once fully unfurled, which they might not usually be- some of them have spatial fuckery going on) is still in a weird space between "she might fit in a space made to accomodate specifically very tall humans if she crouched" and "she is way too small to be believably spaceship-sized"... though these things vary, obviously.

[like seriously how do you get a character who's a believable spaceship but is also human-sized. like the smallest spaceplanes are at least 5 metres long and that's with the rest of the rocket doing all the getting-to-orbit work for them!]

But originally this was going to be about pychological stuff, I think. So, yknow, there's a bunch of rich avenues for looking at this! Obviously there's the whole "trans girl has weird motherhood related feelings more at 11" that some of this plays into, and "trans jewish girl wants to be unstoppable more at 11" is pretty clear too, and then you've got "it can just be a kink thing" which is true but perhaps surprisingly not the crux of it. But I appear to have tired myself out talking about this so I'll leave you to examine those possibilities on your own. Serious introspection is left to the reader! :D