victoria-scott

trans and gay and enjoying it

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I write about cars for a living and I take photographs to stay alive. Expect to see a lot of photography here.

sometimes I post nsfw images of my body. I tag them as adult content, but this is not a purely professional account - this is where I am myself.



I cannot stop using social media, admittedly. I use it to stay sane in periods like this, where I'm alone for weeks on end as my partner is at work, and I don't have a whole lot of work to do myself constantly.

but I want to change the way I use it so that I am spending more time doing what I enjoy rather than subjecting myself to the worst of the world constantly.

One way I'm doing this is by finally ending my unfortunate habit of giving visibility to and discussing the worst transphobic news from around the country (especially on twitter). If I am mourning or hurt directly, I will talk about it, but I am tired of "using my platform" for "awareness" and "advocacy". Everyone has to know at this point, and if they don't, a tweet won't matter. I will relegate the important things to say to longer-form writing and art and projects, because I know that satisfies me much more deeply.

Another way is that I want my photography to be more... of specific artistic intent. I want to start titling my work. I want more of my work (that isn't just "car snapshots", of course) to represent something, even if it's just the specific way I hold the world in my eyes. I want all of my photos to mean something. Social media is excellent at stripping context and intent and vision from nearly anything; I've been allowing it to for a very long time, and I only fought back against that by writing books previously. But I can still fight against it and get to share my work online, which is half of why I use the internet at this point anyway.

To that end, I think I might do a once-daily post of a photo I like, a title, a place, and just a few words about why I took it, why I shared it. For now, I haven't shot for a few weeks, so I'll go through old work, see if I can find some fresh shots I never edited; as I take more, instead of blasting them all out at once, I think I will make the intentional decision to put them out one at a time, with slower pacing.

Obviously, this site is the best suited for this. I may keep doing it on twitter, but I really want to do it here, because of anywhere on the internet, this is the place I feel like people actually look at my work. I'd love to hear your thoughts on this.

All this said, here's one.

small american community oct 29, 2022 the road between where I live, in rural Idaho, and Missoula, the next "big city" to the north of here where there's an actual airport, is characterized primarily by stunning vistas or sights like this. it feels like half of rural America bears the scars of towns people once called home


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something about all this really resonated, and i just wanted to say that i think this is a great approach to creative work and hope you find it a more supportive way of existing online.

also, there is something about this photo that echos something deep in my soul. even though it's so far away from where i grew up, there are so many small communities etched into my childhood memories that could look like this now and were likely on their way already when i was young. 💜

hope you can find some ways to change the way you spend time online that help you find some more peace and meaning in 2023 ❤️

and yeah, it's not like the country was in great shape a few years ago, but it feels like the state of america-outside-the-cities is getting bleaker and bleaker at an astonishing rate. it's deeply depressing and I hope the money behind it all falls apart so people can start building lives for themselves out there again, instead of it all lying fallow until an investor gets a chance to flip it into the Hot New Subdivision.

Thank you! I think this site has already started helping. It’s scratching the correct itches without being as specifically damaging to my brain, lol

And yeah it’s insane to have a front-row seat to the collapse, which is what it feels like out here. No one is doing well, the cars barely run, everyone is struggling to survive, and small cultural institutions keep collapsing. The soul of rural America is rotting, and it’s not a pretty sight

two things; the photo info on the bottom looks like it should be separated, but isn't? you can put < br > (the html line break tag) between sentences to properly divide them

I kept having the same issue on my photo captions.

2nd; that line, "half of rural America bears the scars of towns people once called home" is amazing.

Yeah. Colin's "it all lying fallow until an investor gets a chance to flip it into the Hot New Subdivision." thing rings incredibly true for Florida.

Outside the "cities" (I like to call most of them "towns that got big" due to them just being suburban carpets), there's just little specks, sunbleached reminders of the Old Florida. Shriveled up gas stations, derelict highway restaurants, rust-speckled tin farm buildings.

And in ten years, it'll be wiped clean by suburban encroachment. More and more and more to house northern Republican expats and retirees. Never ending to feed the suburban ponzi scheme.

I think of the song "Oh, Susquehanna", a lot. "The kids who populate these cul-de-sacs will never know what stood beneath their cookie-cutter houses, fields and streams and woods. They'll sit in cars and wait for mom to drive them out of this boring neighborhood"

since basically the pandemic i kinda lost interest in the Posting kind of social media and found a "home" on discord and it honestly feels right like we were meant to hang out in friend circles most of the time, not in the public square

A lot of this sounds familiar, and your plans to change the way you use social media seems like a good way to deal with it.

Regularly posting my photography here has been nice, and I would recommend giving it a try. It hasn't resulted in a flood of likes and shares like dumping a big project on twitter would, but the constant trickle of notifications feels nice. It's also a nice way to experiment and improve your process. And tbh, I'd be very interested in seeing your approach.