every so often I see people go "why am I host, there are so many other people in this head who would do a better job--" okay, but would they really? is the problem really that you, specifically, are weak, or is the problem that your life would reduce anyone to a fine paste? what makes you so sure that your headmates wouldn't also crack under the Ceaseless Onslaught Of Being Embodied?
"I suck at being on fire, there are people other than me who would be better at being on fire--" no one is good at being on fire!!! I get wanting a break from being on fire but please do not put yourself down for not being at your best when you are on fire