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carmenifold
@carmenifold

A 6 panel comic based on the old one above, made in 2024. Panel 1: The comic continues where the old one left off. The two past versions of me are labeled like before, with 16-year old me labeled '2016' and 13-year old me labeled '2013'. 2016 Carmen stands after the punch with yellow blood on her knuckles, looking down at 2013 Carmen, who is hunched over, wiping yellowblood from her mouth, with tears welling up in her eyes.
Panel 2: Both characters look at an offscreen voice behind 2013 Carmen. 2016 Carmen looks startled. 2013 Carmen turns to face the camera, revealing bruises on her left eye and cheek, and blood running down her nose, smearing her hand.
Offscreen voice: 'Hey.'
Panel 3: The view changes, revealing the offscreen voice to be my current self, labeled '2024' over her head. I'm helping 2013 Carmen up to her feet.
2024 Carmen: 'Easy, kiddo.'
Panel 4: The view changes again, looking at the reaction of 2016 Carmen, holding her hand defensively, with the other two partially offscreen as I help 2013 Carmen up.
2024 Carmen: 'Can you stand?'
'There we go.'
'Good.'
'And your glasses...?'
'Ah, here. Better?'
2013 Carmen: 'uh... are you, uh... am I--'
2024 Carmen: 'Worry about that later, ok?'
Panel 5: The view changes back, over 2016 Carmen's startled shoulder. 2013 Carmen stands behind me, putting her cracked glasses back on. I roll up my sleeves and look at 2016 Carmen angrily.
2024 Carmen: 'Alright. Now.'
'You.'
2016 Carmen: 'Fuck'
2024 Carmen: 'Be kinder to yourself or I'll make you, you angsty little shit.'
'I'm serious we get buff from working at Home Depot in 2021 I'll kick your ass if you don't be cool'(the speech bubble cuts off.)
Panel 6: Later, the three sit on a bench. 2016 Carmen sobs and leans into current me, clutching my flannel. I'm talking to 2013 Carmen, pointing at a phone in her hand. 2013 Carmen holds frozen peas to her face, the blood cleaned up, watching whatever's playing on the phone.
2024 Carmen: 'yeah so this guy's name is stormfrenzy, I like his singleplayer world series a lot'
2013 Carmen: 'oh wow these builds are nice! It's like exactly how I want to build...'
2024 Carmen: 'right? It's a good little series'
2013 Carmen: 'yeah'...
2016 Carmen rambles while crying, her speech bubble obscured behind the characters and other bubbles. Visible snippets read:
'-sniff- And I [hidden] like I didn't ever know who I was and I [just] want to cry all the time but I can't and it feels like [I've] lost so much and I'm so scared of being alone [hidden] friends just -sniff- keep fucking leaving, it's all my [hidden] -sniff- don't want to think about being a g-- [hidden] to do, I [hidden] and you're gonna make me look like an ASSHOLE in the [fucking] sequel comic and shit'
Comic ends.
been thinking about this mean-spirited little comic from teenage me for a while. wish i could've known back then where all of those self-averse feelings really came from.

it was fun to draw these past iterations of my sona again! an interesting way to see how i thought about myself through time, and fun to try to emulate my past drawing styles, in particular the ill-advised yellowish sketch layer I had in the original here. girl what were you thinking

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