in this here "blog". or chog? so that i could find them again in the future if i forgot.
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a lot of people say things they don't mean. i have anxiety and depression so i often get discouraged when i read/hear people express themselves but people are often not that literal. it's so easy to get distracted and focus on an apparent fear, or hatred, or apathy etc. when there might be none. a better approach to life is to give people the benefit of the doubt, especially those who are closer to me. i may find out later i was right, but being pessimistic just makes depression and anxiety harder to manage, and these things tend to add up and snowball.
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also there are people who talk about things they don't have any idea about, while appearing to be knowledgeable. it's very hard for me to tell when someone is bullshitting. it's annoying as hell. i know because i do it sometimes, when trying to fit in with a group, or to make light conversation, and i always feel guilty about it. but i rarely remember to think about it when it comes to others. i just have to stop taking everything at face value.
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when feeling bad, just typing things out (even if it gets deleted) helps. apparently just thinking about my problems is a good enough distraction for the intense feelings to subside.