sometimes i do art with the idea of "making justice" to some ideal, or someone else's art, my imagination, something i like, etc. and i should kinda stop that before i consume myself

still trying
30+, enby | hablo español
sometimes i do art with the idea of "making justice" to some ideal, or someone else's art, my imagination, something i like, etc. and i should kinda stop that before i consume myself
I understand..... 
It's hard to completely break out of that kind of thinking. Even though I know I'm happier and do better work if I'm making art freely, without expectation.... Even though I know that.... my brain gets stuck trying to meet some impossible and confusing standard that doesn't really exist.
all that, and couple it with a real troublesome lack of patience, and it gets really out of hand. but i do think i've gotten better about it.