i love this track.
i went on the wikipedia page for paul draper. i instinctively clicked on the controversy section. i got upset. not because of what i read though.
i need to establish an acceptable limit of information i can be curious about. i am upset for letting myself think unbound curiosity was okay. it isn't. it is detrimental. it distracts me, puts me in moods, misleads me, shows me things i don't need to see ever.
i have come across the sentiment many times that humans are not really capable of handling the amount of information they receive from the internet. i don't think i understood what that meant. i think i refused to accept it because i believed that seeking knowledge cannot be a bad thing by itself. turns out it can...
it continues to amaze me how "knowing" something logically isn't the same as realizing and experiencing it. maybe i can apply this somehow. maybe i can come to realize that i can't conform myself with the images in my head. no more excessive daydreaming? no more isolation?