i think a lot about how lucky i am that school always came super naturally to me. like if i was not the favorite of literally every teacher i had i would not have made it through primary education. didnt have (and still dont have) any diagnoses so getting accommodations would've been next to impossible, but also i literally needed to stand in class and could not focus unless i was looking down/away from the teacher and playing with my pens. if i was not a straight-a student i would not have been allowed to do these things and it would have destroyed me
