unimaginable combination of daddy issues trauma meets work trauma when you experience bosses as father figures. sorry boss please say you're proud of me or I'll cry.
this happens to me.
it's actually worse because for some reason my internal mental-emotional defenses against "dad was mean to me" are framed specifically in "this Adult Man Who Has Power Over Me was mean to me" (we don't have time to unpack ALL that) so the fact that my bosses have all been women means that my brain is unable to register that I shouldn't care when they are mean to me and instead it feels more like "dad AND mom are mad at you now!!!! you're FUCKED"
