The final stretch of December is rather excessively "all I have to do is go to bed tonight. That is my only goal, my only priority, the only thing I am asking of myself today! That's it!! Just that!!! → still spends 3-6 hours trapped in the Paralysis Hellscape Dimension not going to bed"
Tis the season to go wow, it's almost like mental illness/disabilities are real and I can't just solve all my problems by being aware and trying really hard!