Wobblegong

The final stretch of December is rather excessively "all I have to do is go to bed tonight. That is my only goal, my only priority, the only thing I am asking of myself today! That's it!! Just that!!! → still spends 3-6 hours trapped in the Paralysis Hellscape Dimension not going to bed"

Tis the season to go wow, it's almost like mental illness/disabilities are real and I can't just solve all my problems by being aware and trying really hard!

• "Habits are the only thing that keep me alive and vaguely on the same continent as functional" vs "I have never managed to form a habit on purpose in my entire life"
• "Podcasts/audiobooks are the best invention since wheels and have massively improved my meals/commutes/chores/insert activity here where the main activity holds way less than 100% of my attention" vs "Podcasts/audiobooks are a torture machine that I enjoy slightly less than being waterboarded mid dentist visit"
• "Cancelling plans is a higher high than drugs or sex" vs "I spent 60 times as long as this scheduled hangout will take realigning my entire concept of existence to make room for it, at immense internal cost, and if we cancel it's going to take me 4 months to recover"

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