I poked my dad to let him know how things were going and to thank him for sending me a few bucks out of the blue. According to him he really isn't having a need to live outside of soc sec, so at some point in the next year I'm not gonna have to wait until he drops dead to be able to re-center my life aka not have mountains of debt.
I also now know roughly how much I'm getting when he does die though. Which is a number I'd speculated but never thought I would have known until the will's all drawn up. I feel weird about that. Like Nozdormu being given the powers of the aspect of time but also was shown how and when he was going to die.
I wasn't gonna become a millionaire or anything but at least when he does go, if I didn't have an affordable sturdy house in a legal weed state to die in I would absolutely have one after, but only enough left over to save for my own relaxing + whatever hella taxes I'm gonna have to pay if I cash it out.
Gives me a little bit of hope. All I need is a job I don't feel like a complete dumbass fuckhead at and maybe I can try to live for a tiny bit before my bones crumble