I feel like the massive depression wave has calmed off for the week. Maybe I'm pavolovian trained to like Fridays from all the shitty office work (also Orange Cassidy was streaming which automatically gives me serotonin). I'm sure it'll pick back up come Monday with no pokes about interviews. Really need to update my notes too, haven't done shit about it cause instead of brain there is dark orb
I did get some writing done today. Made a skeleton/cliff notes/extremely basic beginning to end of a mystery story I repurposed from something I did in 2022. Dunno how much I'll be able to add to it, but we'll see how far it gets before it's unceremoniously dumped. I've been trying to sit in the office during the day and with adderall the boredom is making me find other things to do. Which I need to refill on monday so I'll have to go without for a day or so.
I did some budgeting and basically if I don't get a paycheck by the end of the month, it's gonna be incredibly bad come rent time. I don't like losing days to the depression void but I am also not comfortable with being too calm about things. The last time, I didn't have to get rehired in a month but the panic of losing my job right after a natural disaster set a fire under me to find a contender for one of the worst jobs I've worked. Now, I don't have a choice. I think this week if I see anything that's even down to what I was making before I might as hell hop on it. At least they couldn't pay me less
