"For what use is it to dedicate myself to battle if I am unable to persist? Senseless determination kills the self, rabbi. First me, then thee."
i have personal beef with Heart wielders simply because i KNOW theyre right and i KNOW theyre at least somewhat justified but ugh, it just really doesn't align with my own morals and its frustrating. which is why its absolutely great to write; i adore grappling with my own characters and really pushing myself to get into a fictional person's mind, even if thats a climate i really dont belong in. writing's the only medium where i can actually conduct those kinds of experiments, its wonderful
moving on,
Heart, too, is more psychic than physical- and I'd go as far as to say it's almost entirely PERSONAL. the way one wielder sees Heart might differ entirely with how another wielder sees Heart! generally speaking, Heart likes to hide in the very cores of things. the flesh of a cracked-open walnut, the gunpowder in a bullet, the citrus of a peeled orange, that kind of thing. whatever is the HIDDEN TRUTH of something, the very middle and raw of it
Heart wielders are worried mostly and mainly about how they're feeling. they're often social, but they keep their groups very well filtered- that is to say, they cut people off QUICKLY if they find that they are not happy or comfortable in that person's presence anymore. they feel no need to partake in actions that do not bring them joy, and will outright AVOID doing things they dont want to. this may make them seem pompous or lazy, but to them, its just self defence
Heart wielders often can't actually assign meaning to what they're doing if asked. they'll embroil themselves in a project out of just WANTING TO, and then forget why they ended up lost or confused once their lack of planning bites them in the ass. they'd much rather just go from one thing to the other, without having to spend time readying and fool-proofing.
they take things personally VERY easily- and might not realise that they did so until after a fight. theyll bite back in defence, fully convinced that theyre fighting for something genuine and NOT subjective- everything is self defence for them. its hard for them to understand how the world looks from another perspective, they can only ever really understand themselves. and they DO!
no one understands innermost turmoil better than Heart wielders! they know exactly how theyre feeling at every moment, down to a T, and they're usually VERY forward and honest about it.