VERY MUCH
yeah uh, so basically immediately after surgery and immediately after getting the packing out I got so many moments of "oh my fuck I finally did it, I have a pussy, it's how it's always supposed to have been" and then those are almost instantly balanced out by recovery pain and Real World Shit that keeps u in the moment haha
but the entire time I'm looking at her and being like "omg she's so pretty" and "wow this is so great I have a pussy now" and shit like that!!!
something I couldn't admit before surgery is that post-op pictures were really tough for me to look at and I was worried I would feel the same about myself after surgery for a while. I mean on one hand it makes sense: you're looking at some random person's genitals under bad lighting and generally the pictures are taken soon after the surgery. but at the same time I felt guilty for feeling that way
I'm really happy to say that after surgery I just sorta instantly got this feeling of acceptance for however she looked on that day, my pussy can do no wrong, everything can be fixed with time. and I also sorta retrospectively felt that way about post-op pics.
I think post-op pics were really scary for me ahead of time because I was worried about being in pain and about the swelling and it's not clear how things will work out from post-op pics a lot of the time. but after the surgery you're under the care of doctors, your pain is being managed, I had a strong support system to help me, and all that fear was kinda lifted off my shoulders because I was demonstrably okay despite the open wounds and stuff
anyway yeah I love her :)
