- trans women can look like me and have my interests, I dont need to relate to any other trans women
- its better to take my time and be kind to myself
- fretting over things I cant change wastes more time than just being self compassionate
- lesbians are allowed to have fantasies about women they want to fuck in the face, its not a male trait to think this
I had time the other day to organize my magic cards, and I felt really guilty about it tho! cuz I should have been drawing, or cleaning, or doing something productive. but on the flipside, Im always like "I should organize my magic cards. I should do it. why dont I ever just do it". and its like, I was doing it right then. so I should just engage with it to the fullest.
and it did feel really good to organize them, it feels good to my brain. and realizing that I will always feel like "whatever Im doing in the moment is a waste of time" was eye opening.
Im hoping that following this school of thought will help me feel more trans, the path to a unified and honest identity
guhhh I haven't been able to draw this year very much. at this point I need to re-learn my process and especially anatomy cuz I suck with that. also I wish I could just draw porn but its so scary to do it unless im totally alone in the room yknow? realizing im rly repressed