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dragon warrior iii for the game boy color describes me as "stubborn", and i'm tempted to agree with that assessment


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i've been around the internet since '01.
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peaked somewhere around '07.


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I wrote a post about my former roommates, Kaito/KS and Raspberry, and their allegations of me being a "serial gaslighting abuser".

They have spent more than two years dragging my name through the mud and making shit up. I was mostly silent, hoping that finally not living together might make it stop. Unfortunately, it didn't, so... here we are.

Note: if you have any questions or concerns about this, feel free to reach out, either via Discord or Telegram (same username).
Edit: Hi KS! I'm glad you read my post, but when you say "trying to live our lives away from them": that's what I was doing, until you decided to post a flat-out lie about why and how we moved here, and then decided that you were justified in making that lie when confronted about it, and then made up more lies. You do not just get to make up things and have them go unchallenged. Not any more.
Edit 2: It's pretty telling that I've had multiple people now respond to this with "I had no idea this is what was actually going on". I'm really wondering what else you've been telling people, KS! Because it certainly isn't the truth.

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reposting once because it's saturday now and i fixed one of the images.

people have reached out with their own stories of similarly bad roommates; i appreciate the support. i wouldn't wish this shit on anyone. to quote myself elsewhere: i'm not proud that i managed to survive this, there's nothing positive here. it just makes me long for the future i was denied.


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in reply to @xkeeper's post:

Dude what the fuck, that sucks. Thank god you got away from them. You are so patient, I bet most would have had a mental breakdown much earlier and also done something extreme.

I had been "in crisis" for years, having occasional breakdowns along the way. I made it clear repeatedly: I need help. I cannot keep doing this alone. Nobody helped.

The only reason I made it through is because I didn't have any other options. I couldn't quit my job, because I was the only person supporting us. I couldn't kick them out, because I'm not that kind of person. I would rather sacrifice myself to help others and in this case I paid dearly for it.

I wouldn't wish this fate on anyone. I'm still fucked up over it, a full year later. I'm still dealing with the fallout of it.

At the very least, I hope you're proud of yourself for being strong enough to make it through such horrors while maintaining your moral values to boot.

I can only imagine how hard it is to feel that cornered and alone. I hope you can recover significantly, even if it takes a long time.

I'm just gonna say for the record that, while I had only a very passing familiarity with Raspberry and none that I know of with KS, this version of events does line up with what I remember seeing on twitter over the course of several years. It does not strike me as a retcon.

i appreciate the confirmation. a lot of this had to be pulled from memory; i guess one reason to be mad about griping about it on twitter is that it leaves a trail of evidence as-it-happened. -_-

in reply to @xkeeper's post:

I never would have suspected they were acting like this toward you...I'm so sorry. I hope you can heal from this, and I'm personally sorry for isolating myself at a time when you needed support most.

yeah it's really, really fun in retrospect thinking about how i had to shut up and be quiet about it so that they could *checks notes* spin up their own narrative about how awful and horrible i was, doing the exact same things they said i was going to do

and this is just a fraction of the shit i put up with pre-moveout, btw, there's so much that's not in this story because it's way too long and i wanted to focus on the shit they're doing after they left when i'm literally not in their fucking life any more

i’m sorry that this has followed you for so long, i cannot imagine being in that situation as mine was so much shorter and simpler than that and it still has taken a while to get over. i hope you’re doing better and seattle has been what you were looking for :eggbug-hug: