I really don't know sometimes, why things are as hard as they are.
ok, not like they're actually hard, but hear me out.
I've heard multiple thousands of hours of music at this point. I can physically play my guitar and bass in tune, in rhythm, if someone gives me something to learn I can learn it.
But why is it that every time I try to sit down and write something whole, write an entire song, it feels like I slam into a brick wall? I have the physical skills, but nothing ever seems to come out right, and even simple rhythms and tunes sound hollow and empty to me.
I'm thinking maybe i need a teacher, someone who could sit down with me and go through the basics. but I don't necessarily want to learn to play others' music. I want to write my own.
the addage is write shitty music and do it anyway, i know that. But so often it feels like what I write isn't music, it's just notes. and I don't know how to break out of that. I'm going to set things down for now. I just, I'm so confused. Why is it that other people can understand movement and layering and composition and I get stuck on like, trying to string little snippets of nothing together?
