It feels impossible to be anything that I want to be.
The plan was to stop at 17 and now I'm 23 and I find myself having trouble justifying it. I feel hated by the world. I want to think that things will get better, but I don't believe it. It's so very painful. I want a future that I don't think is possible. I want to live to see a world that I don't think can exist. I want to feel hopeful but I feel very hopeless.
Am I wrong? I want to be. I want someone to say that things are, and will, get better. To show me that everything will be okay. To make me believe in them and it. I want to know that it'll be worth living another day.
Fuck, man. I don't know what to do and I'm losing the energy and willpower to do anything.
