chaos gf

my employment went wonky, does anyone want my burnt out autistic gay ass in their company (must be non evil)? i don't write code fast but I do ask the question that stops you spending three weeks writing code that does the wrong thing and work hard on building emotional safety in my teams so we can all be burned out, autistic and gay safely together

kind of on a hunch and kind of out of annoyance about being asked for a link to my “linkedin or website” I posted a link to this post into the field in a job application

of all the companies I’ve applied for except maybe vrchat, I get the feeling this is one of the companies that would be weirdly receptive to that

edit: at VRChat I answered "why do you want to work here" with "I hear you're all gay furries" and I got as far as an inverview iwth the CTO

I took a two month sabbatical to defrag my brain a little bit so I could keep my job because I liked everyone and I wanted to stay, and then I returned just in time for 70% of the company to be laid off. And y'know what? I was still burned out. I didn't think I was all that burned out, but I was.

Now that I'm hitting the 5-6 month mark I'm suddenly finding myself tinkering with the computer again for fun. I went and learned the Elixir programming language, got back into Blender (as you may have noticed) and installed several different Linux distros. Man, I've not experimented with Linux distros in like a decade. I learned a bunch of new stuff. I see why y'all are on Void.

I want to give it at least a month, not least because by then I should have recovered a bit better from last month's not very fun visit to hospital (I'm fine, just not very mobile), but I'm looking for work again.

I'm senior and experienced enough that it's not really a matter of technology. I'll learn your technology. You know I learn programming languages when I'm bored. What I really want is good people: ones who will understand if I log in to Slack and say "gonna take the day off to cry" on that one day every three months or so when my brain decides to do that. Ones who don't burn the candle at both ends. Folks who post to #random about some injustice they've heard about that made them angry. Companies where half the employees are in #lgbt. Places where I'll cry as hard as I did this time when I leave.

See sidebar for contact deets if you've got something that sounds exactly like that.

Previously

I feel like I'm starting to get somewhere. Next up:

• Eyelashes!
• Hair
• Attach iris to eyeball, detach cornea instead. Add so many goddamn loop cuts until the edge of the iris looks like an actual honest-to-god circle
• That cheekbone line under the eye has gotten pretty sharp and should actually probably be going upwards on the inner side

I'm starting to feel not fully ashamed of how this looks. Possibly I should go do some head shape blocking studies. Also, I've still not bridged the gap over to real-world usage and I really ought to get on with that.

I tend to think that after the collapse my most useful skill will be ham radio operation but in reality it'll probably be being the person who knows how to pirate shit