we felt so exuberant (and horny which is rare and always a good sign) yesterday and it's sad to see how low our baseline still is even after awesome experiences like the past weekend and maybe starting a new relationship. it's like i used all the energy i built up and it's just gone now. maybe it's partially because i appear to be sick (almost hangover like symptoms but i didn't drink yesterday) but that can't account for all of it. it has to have more to do with me sitting back in the same place, even if i can see the way out now.
i don't feel like piss but i don't feel like myself either. i usually don't feel like myself. and that's heartbreaking.
